They Don’t Know

By Garrett Hedman

I love 5am mornings, especially when I can walk outside and my glasses can be an anecdote for the lesson on condensation I’m giving in two days. That is, I walk out of the dorms of Delta State University, tie askew, zombiing my way to breakfast, and my glasses fog because of the heat and humidity…at 5am in the morning. What I do for these kids. students. scientists. Yeah, I like scientists.

They don’t know that I’ve woken up at 5am for the past two weeks to make sure I’m the best teacher I can be for them. They don’t know that I’ve been going to bed at 12:30am to finalize lesson plans on atomic structure. They don’t know.

A place of rest and comfort at institute has been an art garden by the Bologna Performing Arts Center. A small fountain sits in the middle of the garden’s entangled pathway of abstract sculptures. I have methodically walked around the edges of the fountain rehearsing my “teacher voice”, an assertive, caring, confident, firm voice. “I see the bronze sculpture is behaving quietly today.” The garden is also where I try to inspire the stone statue without a head that “It can learn. It will learn.” The garden is my education sanctuary.

The scientists don’t know I’ve spent hours rehearsing what I’m going to say to them. That way, when I’m in front of my class, I can act as if my knowledge of chemical bonds is second nature to me. They don’t know.

I’ve worked relentlessly for four years in college to understand how we learn, problem solve, and make decisions. That work means nothing to the students.

I’ve cried over the stories of triumph that have inspired me to teach in the Mississippi Delta. Those tears mean nothing to the students.

But I know. I know what I’ve done.

So I take a breath. I put on a smile, and I say, “Good morning class, my name is Mr. Hedman.”

EdNewsColorado

Instead of a guest blogger this week, we would like to take the time to thank our partner Ednewscolorado.org. I interned for this wonderful organization during my sophomore year of college at the University of Colorado at Boulder. No other resource offers the detail, depth, and commentary, which Ednews provides for all Colorado education related news. After getting their newsletter for years, it truly was a thrill for me to see my name included in the articles provided this week. We here at NorthtoSouthEducation are looking forward to a wonderful relationship with this influential organization.

An Honors Education for Everyone

I didn’t believe it, at first. I couldn’t stop thinking, “This is incredible… impossible even.” An entire district in New York eliminated the achievement gap in students graduating with a Regent’s Diploma (the highest of three diplomas offered by the state), saw their minority enrollment in AP Calculus triple, and now have a higher percentage of special education students graduating with Regents diplomas than New York state graduates with all students. If you haven’t heard the story of Rockeville Centre District… keep reading.

SSHS EntranceThis week (my second week of class here at TC), we had a presentation from the former Assistant Superintendent of Instruction, Delia Garrity, who helped lead the reform effort in RVC. The premise of reform was simple: every student in the district deserves the best education possible and this is not happening. The superintendent, with several principals, started simply, presenting the extreme inequity to teachers, parents, and community members with data. Eventually, no one could deny the problem: you can’t have an equal education for all when students are tracked into unequal curriculums. The superintendent believed that there will necessarily be a gap between students when the lowest tracks (where students are taught curriculum that pales in comparison with the honors curriculum) include more minority, low SES, special education, and ELL students than the general tracks.

So RVC stopped tracking. Completely. And in every subject, including math! They did it slowly, starting with the elementary and middle schools and finally moving to the high school. You can read the whole story here. The whole time, administrators and eventually teachers were driven by the belief that all students should have and can do well in an honors level education.

What about the highest achieving students? Well, as it turns out, they did better too. It really sounds too good to be true but the data (there is a ton) is very clear. The HS principal worked with two professors at the University of Colorado (my alma mater!) to write this article which presents a very compelling case. What made it work? The administration credit higher amount of support for struggling students, high expectations and belief in every student, and extensive professional development in differentiation for teachers (not to mention a ton of political patience).

I know this is a controversial thing to do. Detracking is a big deal in any district: but I think the most important part of this story is that RVC had to make a structural change to influence the belief that every student can learn at a high level. They couldn’t sustain that belief with rhetoric but had to take action: more support for struggling students, teachers, and parents along with a unified, honors level curriculum. All the right ingredients for change.

The frustrating part of this all: I am not going to be a superintendent next year. If I get a job in a school that tracks students (read: almost every school), it is unlikely that I will have enough of a voice to change the tracking structure at the school, much less the elementary and middle schools that feed it. BUT I CAN BELIEVE IN MY STUDENTS. Rockeville Centre along with the many districts who are now beginning the long process of detracking their curriculum show us that all students CAN achieve at an honors level if we believe in them and give them the support along the way. And maybe (after tenure?) I can be a voice to help move the curriculum structure in that direction.

Until then, I accept the job as subversive detracker, believing that every student in my class, even if it is general or skills tracked class, deserves an honors level education.

What you say is what you see

I’ve just begun my first week of classes with MTR: Culture and Worldviews and Classroom Leadership. The following are my reflections from our lesson and readings on setting expectations for students…

It seems intuitive that the use of words is integrally tied to the learning process. In my undergraduate career as an English major, my entire field of study was based on reading words, interpreting words, and writing words for a grade. However, it also seems funny that  something simple, letters arranged in specific combinations to signify images and ideas, has the capability to drastically impact the results of student achievement.

According to Research for Better Teaching, President John Saphier claims that teachers are the most important factor in student learning (click the link to watch the video). Perhaps this is because they control many of the words students see and hear in order to learn. The way that teachers talk to students and talk about students can determine the way that students grasp knowledge. Think about the following two examples:

“Class, this year our goal is for 95% of you to complete all of your homework assignments on time.”

“Class, this year we will settle for nothing less than 100% of you finishing 100% of your homework assignments on time.”

Note the difference? In the first example, the teacher initially sets up her classroom as an environment where it’s expected that not everyone will succeed. That teacher is setting his own bar for his students and himself (translation: I will work only hard enough to see that almost all of you succeed, but, well, I know a few of you will never finish everything on time). Despite the marginal difference in percentages, the 5% lowered expectation drastically changes the self-imposed expectations for students. The second teacher essentially puts the onus onto her students for them to finish each and every one of their homework assignments on time. She will not settle for anything less than 100% effort from 100% of the people inside the classroom.

Not only can teachers’ words to their students affect student learning, but teachers speaking about students not only demonstrates how they view their students, but furthermore, affects every interaction with them. Here’s another example of the way that words affect students:

“Most of my students come from single-parent, low income households. I know that they have enormous gaps in their education, probably don’t read much at home, and so my job will be to fill in the things that they are lacking.”

“Most of my students come from single-parent, low income households. Many of them are from immigrant families where English isn’t spoken at home. Their diverse backgrounds will cause a great variety of discussion in class. I think they’ll have a lot to teach the rest of their classmates.”

Again, note the difference? These two (fictional) teachers are speaking about the same population of students, yet the first teacher discusses her students in such a way that deems them deficient, whereas the second teacher views his students as asset-based. He sees his students as fully functioning members of the classroom, rich with diverse experiences and knowledge. In these two instances, the way that the teachers speak about their students represents the way that they view their students: the first, as lacking understanding, and the second, as full of unique gifts. These views greatly influence the beliefs that teachers have about what their students are capable of, which in turn, influences how teachers view their own position as student-impacters.

As teachers and leaders, we each need to pay special attention to the way that we speak about the students in our classrooms. Calling students “at-risk” or “deficient” can create a self-fulfilling prophecy of risky or deficient behavior. It is not acceptable for teachers to define students by what they lack or to accept low-quality on false presuppositions of their abilities.  Obviously it’s important to note the various differences between students which are in part caused by economic and social differences. However, viewing differences as deficiencies tends to color the ways teachers conceive of their students abilities and how they expect their students to perform.

Words, in spite of being small, are incredibly powerful. They have the power to shape the way a teacher views their students, which in turn, affects the ways that teachers treat their students. Furthermore, words have the power to shape the way a student sees himself–either as asset-based or deficient, as a part of the 100% or the 5% exception.

Let’s use words to build.

Asking Questions

Last summer I taught conversational English in Zhengzhou, China through the Orbis Institute. Before I ever entered my own classroom, the expectations were clear of how the students would be learning. While observing other classes I always saw the same thing. Students were in stadium-style seating with immovable chairs. Teachers were at the board as if they were professors at a large university. There was no room for interaction. No room for discussion. I saw teachers write something on the board – say, “Hello! How are you today? Would you like to go to the grocery store?” The teachers would then say the phrase on the board very deliberately, in the best English they could muster. The students, in unison, would respond, seven times out of ten, butchering the pronunciation. “Herro. How are yov tolay? Woul yov like to go to the grofery stove?”  Ugh.

I arrived at my classroom starry-eyed and idealistic with a lesson plan full of activities, games, and group work. I said to myself, I am not like these teachers. I am going to make class fun and interesting, while simultaneously helping them learn more than memorization could ever hope to accomplish. I said to myself, at no time would my classroom be simply an area for students to rehearse the language without ever interacting with it in a real way.

Unfortunately, this was easier said than done. It turns I could not find out which came first, the chicken (teachers) or the egg (students). It was not so much that the students were resistant or difficult to these games and activities – they just did not see the merit in learning language this way. These students had always learned one way, and here I was attempting to teach them another. The students were unfamiliar with the tasks, with the formatting of the lessons, with the usual responses I would be expecting in a western classroom, while I was completely unaccustomed to teaching their way.

I didn’t quite know what to do – there was very little mentoring or assistance, and so I did the only thing I could think of – I asked my students what they wanted. Every day after class, I asked my students what I could improve upon. I asked them: What can I do better?  What do you want in a classroom? What would you like to learn about?

Eventually we were able to reconcile our educational differences, and come to a happy medium. With a fair amount of modeling, (which I was not doing enough of at the beginning anyway), and a healthy supply of activities, I thought the students actually learned something, and had a little bit of fun while doing it.

What I take away from this story, more than anything is the how my students and I went from such opposite poles of educational philosophy to this, by most accounts, happy compromise. It was because I was willing to ask, they were willing to be honest, and we both were willing to compromise, that the summer turned out to be so successful.

I sure hope my students at Breakthrough are opinionated.

Montessori vs. TFA

Two years ago, I was sitting in a circle of chairs with fellow 4th and 5th grade story tellers at a Montessori school in Boulder, CO. I told them the beginning of a story about Rotten Tots the homeless man who was looking for place to live, and then I had each student give an example of what could happen next to Mr. Tots in the story. Their continuations were typical. However, half way around the circle, a 4th grader, let’s call him Mark, had decided that sitting with his head hanging from the chair and his feet up in the air would help him think better. Seeing this as an opportunity to be “innovators”, all the story tellers reversed their direction of sitting, including myself. I commented, “This is it! We can look at a story one way, but looking at it in a different way can be even more exciting!” The learners laughed and thought of incredibly creative examples to continue the story with their head on the ground.

Now, I’m going to tell this story again from a Teach for Americaesque approach according to what I’ve learned through training this week.

Two years ago, I was sitting in a circle of desks with the class of 2016 in an elementary school in Denver, CO (the year indicates the year they will graduate college). I wanted to teach them about brainstorming. I wrote the word “present” on a timeline and drew three different arrows branching from the line to indicate three different paths for the future. I wrote down three things I could be doing at the same time next year: living in Jamaica, playing the piano, or teaching. This was the “I do” part of the lesson. Then, I asked a student, let’s call him Mark, “where do you want to be in one year?” He excitedly answered, “I want to be in 5th grade after passing the state writing test.” This was the “we do” part of the lesson. I gave him a HollaDollar for participating. Afterward, I allowed each student to finish their their own webs, the “you do” part of the lesson plan. As they left class, they had homework to brainstorm three different professions they would want to work in, which would allow me to know more about the students and know whether or not they understand brainstorming.

What a difference!? To only imagine what students learned in each lesson! I’m a Dewyist, discovery-man at heart, but I’m very interested in seeing how Teach for America changes how I think about education.

Teacher as a Learner: Why I am still a student

I’ve been asked why I want to become a teacher probably 734 times in the last two years. I love the question, really I do, but I never feel like I have the right answer. And it always seems to change.

  • “I can’t not work with kids. They are inspiring, amazing, and goofy. Who wouldn’t want to spend their day in a classroom?”
  • “I love math, and kids are awesome. Math + awesome kids = math teacher.”
  • “Education is a critical social issue and I want to be a part of the group of people making a difference.”
  • “Who wouldn’t want a career with the salary, prestige, and social opportunity teaching provides”… oh wait…. woops… they’re still working on that on.

Seriously though. The question of why am I studying to be an educator feels, at times, of dire importance. I figured out yet another answer last week. I was sitting through a forum session in my MfA orientation, and the two panelists were my future teacher advisors.

Halfway through the session, while answering the question, “What should we do to maximize our experience in our masters programs,” one of them paused, scrunched up his face, and in the most wonderful New York accent said:

Look. You do what you want. You read what they give you, you watch the teachers they tell you too. Whateva. Thats not the point. The point is you have a year to learn how to be the best learner you can be. Because those are the best teachers, in my opinion. The ones who learn. Who listen to their students and know where they’re at. You’ve got to take control of your learning and figure out what is going to make you a better student first. That’s whats going to make you a good teacher.

Nothing new. Nothing too profound… I mean, I’ve heard the phrase teacher as learner before. The social constructivists love it: you are the “lead learner” in your classroom. I buy it… but something about what Derrell said stuck with me the rest of the day.

I want to be a teacher because I love being a student. I love learning. I love finding new ways to teach and discovering new things to teach. I love working with people who can show me something new. I love the classroom. And geek-ely I love math. It somehow made sense. So I have, now, another answer to the oft asked-question. I want to be a teacher because I love to learn.

And this is a good thing, as this week I begin a year long masters program here in NYC. This is going to be an incredibly intense year of learning and teaching, and I am so excited to be blogging along the way.

Stomping in Memphis

Memphis, Tennessee is a city with a rich historical background, fraught with oppression and segregation, that is now working to fight it’s way toward equality. I’ve currently been in Memphis for almost a week now, trying to survive the heat and humidity, but basking in the warm Southern hospitality shown everywhere I visit. From the gas station to the grocery store parking lot to the library, people here are genuinely friendly and willing to help you accomplish whatever mission you set out for yourself. The other day I was picking up some furniture for my apartment at a thrift store and asked a woman for directions. She told me a couple of times how to get to where I needed to go and then said to me, “You know, why don’t you just follow me out? I’m headin’ that way anyway!” Almost everywhere I go in public, strangers make friendly conversation with me. It reminds me of an idyllic picture I have of the South where two old friends will sit on their rockers on an oversized front porch, drinking sweet tea and watching the neighborhood children ride bikes through a sleepy street. It is this genteel Southern nature that in my opinion, places Memphis at an extraordinary advantage to fixing the egregious oppression of the past.

Memphis is an old Southern city, placed at the corner of Tennessee, Arkansas, and Mississippi, spilling over into all three of the states. Its location was chosen for its proximity to the Mississippi River, which made it a harbor for shipping and transit, and for its bluff which prevented the city from being destructed by flooding and tornadoes. In the mid-1800s, Memphis was a quiet city, with a booming cotton industry (due almost entirely to the slave population). During the Civil War, many black slaves escaped their plantations and settled in Memphis, thus marking the racial battle for territory and prosperity in the city. Throughout the next century and a half, the poorly educated black families would struggle for jobs, rights, and freedom in a city wracked with racism. Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. was shot in the Lorraine Motel in downtown Memphis, forever changing the battle for racial justice in America.

I was fortunate enough to visit the National Civil Rights Museum in Memphis and was blown away by the progression of the Civil Rights Movement in America. One of the things that struck me the most was a sign that was created by a student attending a Freedom School. The sign read “Sometimes in fear, we tread gently when we should STOMP!” In conjunction with this sign were journal entries from Freedom School students who wrote that by attending school, they would be risking their lives. One little girl wrote that “this will be a bloody, bloody summer” for her in her school. These students risked everything so that they could learn the skills they needed to fight for their rights and to wholly own their roles as citizens.

In two months, I will be entering my classroom for the first time, fearful I won’t be good enough to give something of value to my students. I will be in charge of close to a hundred students for eight hours a day, five days a week. I will be accountable for their daily lessons, their assignments, and their consistent growth. I have a lot resting on my shoulders! It would easy for me to let me fear overtake me, do a mediocre job, and to allow my fear to dictate my “treading gently.” Thankfully, I have been encouraged by a voice from the past to not tread gently, but to STOMP.

Memphis, get ready.

What is your threshold for pain?

I recently met with my cooperating teacher from where I will be student teaching, Rachel (Not her real name), a veteran of 5 years. She teaches debate, American Literature, and AP language. Through the few times we have met, it has become abundantly clear that her passion lies not with the content, but in the success of her students.  I liked her immediately. At our most recent meeting, Jeni asked me something that scared me, confused me, and made me want to hide a little bit. She asked me a question that no one has ever asked me before at any level of my schooling. She asked me, “Nate, what is your threshold for pain?”

Wow.

How does one answer this question? What is your threshold for pain? I have had my wisdom teeth removed – does that answer the question? I had my arm dislocated when I was a six – but I really don’t remember what that felt like, so that shouldn’t count either, right?

What is your threshold for pain?

Maybe she was more referring to my capacity for pain academically. I’ve pulled approximately 13 all-nighters in my academic career – writing papers, studying for multiple-choice tests, and memorizing lines from Shakespeare plays – but does this illustrate my threshold for pain? Does this help describe how much I can take?

What is your threshold for pain?

Perhaps she was referring to something else entirely. Conceivably, she was citing what I’ve heard many times before, from many different teachers – that teaching is the hardest job in the world. Perhaps she was referring to the profession where working 40-hour weeks would be a luxury, and not caring about your students is the eighth deadly sin. Perhaps she was referring to the profession where my paycheck will be an insult to paychecks, and so I’ll judge debate tournaments not only to be there for my students, but also to help make ends meet.

What is your threshold for pain?

I’m not sure. Maybe she was referring to all of these – maybe none of them. Either way, I start training to teach summer school this week. I guess I’ll find out how much threshold for pain I have soon enough.

I do know one thing though.  I’m excited to find out.

Lucky

One week ago I put on the license plates to the first vehicle that I have ever bought, my dad’s 1978 Ford pickup.  The beige truck has a shifter a couple feet high, a clutch several inches off the ground, and rust on more than one part of the body; it’s old.

Concerned for my safety, my parents entrusted the car to a self proclaimed “dirty, rotten, rat bastard” to fix the truck for the road.  To say the least, the self-taught mechanic, our rat bastard, resurrected the dead.  He used an old license plate to patch a hole in the flooring.  He placed gorilla tape covered in brown paint to hide parts of the body where rust had eaten through the steel, and he replaced multiple parts.  In the end, the mechanic said the car runs on duck tape, twine, and the grace of god.

I’ve told many people about this beauty.  Generally I get the reaction, “Oh, you’ll fit right in where you’re teaching.”

After the truck was ready, my dad and I began the trip from Dillon, Colorado to  Cleveland, Mississippi headed toward the Teach For America Delta Institute.  When we left at 4:30am, it seemed like the truck was going to make it.  However, an hour and a half into the trip, a sequence of noises filled the truck: SCRRR, BANG, WHA?  I looked back toward the road and the muffler of the truck was bouncing on the highway.

We pulled over at the next gas station to look at the damage.  It seemed like we, the truck, my father, and I, would survive.  A neighborly gas pumping friend commented on the truck “Yup, they don’t make ‘em like that anymore.”

So why this story?  For the past 7 months I’ve been told about the people that I’m going to meet in the Mississippi Delta.  I’ve been told what they’ll act like, what they think like, and yes, what they’ll drive (cars like the Ford F-250).  I don’t know how many of these generalizations are true, and honestly, I hurt at the thought of some of these generalizations to be true.  If I had muffler problems every day, I know I would be a little distracted in a Chemistry class.  Although I’m thankful for my family and friends’ insight to whom I’m about to meet,  I guess I’m just ready to actually meet people and to see what it’s really like to teach in the Mississippi Delta through Teach for America.  I look forward to sharing the stories ahead.

By the way, my dad and I made it to Cleveland two days after the muffler incident without any other extremely crazy problems.  Did I mention the car’s name is Lucky?